Dani Nero

insomnia

2009-04-27T20:14:00.003+08:00

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love

But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush

Being without you girl,

I was all messed up, up, up, up

When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time, you'll change your mind

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more

Oh i stay up til you're next to me

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love

You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust

And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us

But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah),

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep

Cause it feels like I've fallen for you

It's getting way too deep

And i know that it's love becauseI can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ah

HOLY SHIT

2009-04-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

HOLY SHIT

damn this blog has been so fucking dusty....

god knows since when i updated...

ok now currently in RP...

classes have sumtimes been a pain,

sumtimes are juz non stop laughing..

c.mates...

well they are cool............

frm Kishen, to Dom, Kok Shin, Ika, Azah..

Kishen: my clowning partner of W35M... without us... god dang e class will be quiet as hell

Dom: another noisy partner of us...cool guy

Kok Shin : aka Ah Beng....nvr stop making me laugh with his Beng-ish actions...

Ika: love to bully her and call her Shafiq...

Azah: same birthday as me...nice and sweet girl,pretty too... :) *blushes*

joy: haha...e sleepy one and love her ellen shows and game

to sum it all off....we have a real fucked up slacker of a class that really can bond

cool shit...

o ya...i have a crush on smbd on campus..to narrow things down..she`s in e same building as me...whahahahaha....however.... She`l nvr knw.....why?? im guessing she is taken or simply not interested... oh welll.....not suprise...who wld be

interested wif moi rite.....

wad da fuck kan............ joining Muay Thai IG.....

dun be suprise i mite appear in e contender asia 10....hahaha...

going to e gym today and migiht be dying my hair blue...

yea...ya heard it blue...

till here............

*after days of chattin...im fallin for ya*

2007-12-14T15:28:00.000+08:00

well... im totally sorrie for e freakingly long absense..
had been busy with work...work work..

well over e past few weeks,
went out with dearest and had so called
double dates with patrick n his gf and shaz wif batu
and... yea me and philip are okay...
i guess?

on both double dates went to vivo
watched Hitman wif shaz n batu

and the other was juz recently
wif pat n his gf also at vivo watching the Tattoist..
had lunch at thai express which was so superb!!

den juz 3days ago watch Alvin n chipmunks
as G.V were test screening it..
those whom were G.V staff were only
eligible to watch
yay! got to watch wif her...
super cute sia e chipmunks!!

sadly she is nw in msia... juz left yty..

so 1 week of rindu-ness..

and on e 18 is D-Day for me...
N level results... scary shit..
insyallah i prey that i can pass

and o yea
b4 i 4get..: to her, sorrie if my past entries were crude, that line was juz a sayin 4 me..
juz e same as wen u said u wont look back.

hey ur attched too...
so good luck

yo yo yo

2007-11-29T12:12:00.000+08:00

hey ho..
the week has been great..things have changed in my life..

thanks to..
ahem2....

aint gonna put it here..

nanny2 poo2...

hints will be put up on my frenster pro.

blehs... gotta get ready...

goin out wif. -ahem-

toodles

and yay!! pay day was yty

Shocker

2007-11-20T18:35:00.001+08:00

well i was in for a real shocker the other day,
X added me and all..and SHE chatted with me 1st..
but during e course of our chat, i pulled the trick quest,
so how u n ur guy are doin?
e answer was well...haiz..
-no comment-

but wen i type out on
wishin her well with her new bf
and all, i admit it breaks my heart to type that,

but well..if that guy cld make her happie,
i`l be happie for her,
i guess she have moved on,
and this is e part and time of my life where i have to
close the book we once had..

has been sick lately..god knws y..

well..till here... got no mood 2 blog...
toodles

One coin Two Sides

2007-11-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

had been a tiring week..
watch game plan AGAIN for e 2nd time wif cuzin,
b4 that watched BeoWulf wif Liyana n cuzin....

well..at this moment
god knws why did i wanted to
blog when i have nothin to write.

but one shocker for me is that
X added me back on frenster,
be it by mistake or not, i dont know.

but if she did added by mistake, by all means
she could delete me again. but if she did added.
well i wont say a thing, juz that i dont wanna cause
anymore hurt or harm to her or her family..

as it has been a very2 long time since we chatted.
i guees the time that i spent ever since the HUGE break up
was kinda good for me...
it change my whole life, lessons were learnt and
well.. regrets dat should not be ever done again.

being in a relationship with her was the best moments in
my life but yet, some were juz painful..
the pain,misery that i went thru be it when i
was wif her or after the break up
made me into a stronger person..

i guess an old fren said, this would be the worst year for those
that were born in the year of the horse, somehow,
parts of it are true,
having lost the one i love and care so much,
losin an old best fren that i have known for abt 7years or so...
and so on..

but well..i juz gotta believe in god and be contented with wad i have now..
yea syukhor alhamdulilla that my family and i are healthy.

for the love life?
well.. truth being told, every 5th or 16th
will always be a special date to my heart be it i am
attched or single..

but i think i`l be remainin single for quite a while,
i dun wanna rush, i dun wanna make e same mistakes..
Readin X`s shout-out, i guess i am happie if she is,
seeing her prom photo, i guess every1 was rite that she is way bttr off w,o me
well.. its all up to fate tho...

for now, i`l be workin my arse off for money, doin my
sports again with gyming and swimming...
mum said i lost weight wen i started workin..
haha..finally i could hav my abs back..
the last time i had them was wen in lower secondary,

well.. till here den..

self reflections

2007-11-11T14:09:00.000+08:00

it really has been awhile ever since i chilled out
relaxed ma mind and chill wif an `old fren`
that i used to knw..

its kinda sad 2 see and hear on what has happen between us..
maybe it was for e best... maybe it wasnt..
but yea.. i admit.. i miss dat `old fren` that i use 2
hve..

work has been hell..
one by one my close frenz resigned..
sad as i am one of e few left...

will be watching e Game Plan
wif shazwani,her boi, me and liyana..
double date? haha
nah...

recently while i was serving...
i saw X`s close b.f
he saw me..
he was wif his grp of frenz dat somehw look
eva so familiar..

if my suspicions was rite..she was there too..
right there and then... i started 2
tremble... lord knws why..
my eye started 2 bcome puffy and
i was juz abt 2 breakdown..
yea..
go ahead..
make fun of me..

but yea..seeing e girl i truly love and miss so much
eventho she is juz an X of mine.. i still do
love her lots and miss her 2 bits..
breaks my heart,
went to e locker room.. and
juz...well.. cried inside..

went out front put a brave front and serve e other patrons..
i guess dis is e point of mi life where i juz have to move on..
she already did..

if i had a time machine...there are 3 points of my life
where i wanted to go back 2...

firstly is when i retained my secondary 3... i wished i had not
slack.. if not..i`l be waitin 4 mi O`s..

2ndly..is when i was wif her.. juz wld love 2 not do e wrong
doings i had done..

lastly is when i lost my best fren..

well..
wad can i do..

yea..admit.. im an egoist... but then..
well...i m juz lost for words... till here...

to her... : i juz wish u all e best wif ur guy.. yea.. altho it breaks me down and breaks my heart to say this, but may u n ur guy hav a long and successful relationship..

to e old fren. : there are many things and shit we both wen thru ethier 2gather or personally..
yea i do miss ur company,in a fren kinda way..but since dis had 2 happen.. i cld nt do anythin...
like u said.. im a burden.. so yea..

2 e readers... well will be bloggin agn..soon..

so yea..

till here..

gaming

2007-11-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

wokie2..

e title says it all....one day i bought a new psp..and e next i found a psp slim???

WOO!!

2 psps...a normie psp and a slim one..

:P

joac helped me installed e games on e fat one...

e best thing...

i found a psp slim in e mall`s toilet filled with
awesome games...

didnt had time to install f.m to finally fixed comp..

fri nite went to watch movie with Lily..
send watched e game plan...
fuckinly hilarious...

asked me 2 send her hm and so i did...

blah2..

no mood 2 blog nw..

haha..

cuz havin 2 psp is way2 bttr ..

till here..

blog agn wen i want to...

aite!!!

toodles..

holla!

2007-11-01T12:36:00.000+08:00

well well well
it has been a week since i last blog..
well lets juz say wad i blog in my previous entry
shall & shld be forgotten..
maybe it was for e better...maybe it was a mistake..
that i cant say

well...let me recap my week..last sat
went to watch `The Seeker` wif shazwani
for e midnight show..
now can watch movie for free..muhahaha
the movie was ok lar..ntg much to say..
kinda borin at certain parts...
then accompanied her for her taxi..
gave her 10bucks for it...
as i was e one that wanted to sponser..

then last sunday was our
annual Hari Raya Open house..
boy it was jam-packed..
e food..
hMMM!!!!
was superbbbbb!!!

monday was juz a long ass houred day for us..
did closing..had to work for free labour as we
exceeded our work time and had to do double work cuz
of shaz aka shazwani..

tues did closing with hanan,aripin,rinto..
had e help of liyana & shaz...
after that..

VROOOM!!! off to our G.V tamp
chalet...yea
it was fun..e 1st thing me & shaz did was dat we attacked
e booze!! bacardi,martini,absolute vodka...!!
unfortunately,
shaz got really2 drunk and
well..certain things happen that is really dissapointing and sad
went home wif farris as he `tumpang-ed` me on his bike..

e thrill was awesome sia... riding at full speed..beatin red lights
and it was drizzling..
hhaha

wed wch was yty was my off day, woke up by mums phone call..
den called shaz and talked to her for abt an hour or 2..
planned to meet @ 2.30 for Singtel meeting
but we decided to meet earlier for lunch..
sadly i didnt get e job..
shaz,my cuz and her fren got it..

shaz & me planned 2 quit g.v asap..
same goes to hanan n ipin..
e pay is way too shitty
but e environment is awesome

den had dinner wif shaz,amran
at food junction.. had conferance calls wif
shaz & liyana till abt 4am..

woke up 2day at 11+
blah blah blah

work starts in e afternoon till closing today..
-_-'

tired..but well..work is work..

till her den..

will blog more later....
toodle di doo!

cant accept e new me...Fuck off

2007-10-26T19:06:00.000+08:00

haha.. now its out..
its has finally been read..
yea..i aint e person u used to know..
i aint blind..i saw u 2 fool..
its funny hw u judge me now..
as a dog bla blah blah..
im like ur girlfrn blah blah blah..
u dun wanna post dis..yada yada yada

u think i really gv a damn?
even if i call u sayin i need 2 talk 2 somebd..
u RARELY come down..
worst off U ASK ME TO GO OVER..
hw dumb can dat be?
u said my EGO is way way to high
its not EGO..FOR UR INFO.,.
i dun wanna fucking trble u..

all dis while...
i have been just way way tooo nice..
been too paitient wif ur dumb shit..
to u dis is being petty? u dun even knw wen
i m being petty...

i am over dat damn stage off being petty..
yea..maybe its true..
Im a Malay...ur a chinese..
our point of views are way diff..

u can say stuff wen im wif X
but i cant say it wen ur wif ur X?
haha..

dun hope for me to even apologise...
cause come to think off it..
i dun feel guilty at all..
u can spread it all to ur brother
anbd others...
let them read..
for all i care..

get into a fist fight if we have to..
kill me if u have too..
i dun care..
call me an ego-maniac
call me wadeva u want..

and who da hell u think u are
sayin i need a gf?
juz look into the mirror and ask urself that..

and talkin abt a major topic abt appr.
wow..haha..its funny hw ur ur views came 2 ur mind
wen u read it..makin anb eg. of me as a pri sch kid etc....

juz lost of words...yea..
u cant accept it if im keepin quiet abt it..
u cant accept it wen i let it out..
wtf...

yea.. call me childish or wadeva u want..
i aint e Danial u use to knw..
i had a reality check, this is e new me..
i wont change...

u being too tolerant abt me complainin abt e slightest things..
haha..tats real funny....need not cencored anything..why so afrd?
juz say it....u have e balls..

u can be e mr.nice guy
and i`l be e one that caused the trble all dis while
and being e girl abt it..

cause... i dont gv a fuckin damn abt it and
gv a fuckin damn bout ya..

havin u off of my life is way2 better..
i have no loss..
i hav better frenz & bro`s..

so frm ur blog..
fuck off?

u juz took e words right out off my mouth..

workin it off

2007-10-22T18:52:00.000+08:00

holla if u hear me
well..to my `fellow` readers,
sorry for the long absense
have been real busy this past few weeks
with raya outings and all...

juz started work at Golden Village juz abt a week ago..
so far so good..the crew there are awsome..
some are juz pain in e ass..

but wif some of us taking care of the counter
all hell break lose..not working but foolin arnd,
smoking our lungs out...critising customers..

we do see some popular faces..
some are juz stuck up..some
are frenly..

somehow or rather, working in e customer sevice line,
i do see faces that resembles of a certain some1...
yea..maybe it does hurt my heart

but well..like many people say
`if u love that some1 that much,
let her go..lewt her fly free.`
its easier said then done..

the heartache goin thru it it
agonising..somehow,
i learn 2 juz be numb..
put a fake smile infrnt of everyone..
go and lisen 2 dis malay song..
altho i dont fuckinly like e artist,
the song is nice
`Cinta Arjuna`
and now, i juz done really gv a fuck if
ppl that are close 2 me, be it my
slackers gang,work crew,family
dont care or show thier appri towards me
but be prepared..
dont even think of coming to me wen u need help,
need some1 to talk to or a shlder 2 cry on

all this while, i have been way TOO nice..
nice guys finish last.. well.. e idoitic
happy go lucky, always givin in Danial is gone..
is dead

i stand up foir myself...
well perhaps this goes out to the
slackers gang
engh is engh for me..
i have been way too nice to all of u..
my sacrifices arent appriciated...
so fuck it..

its time to be ruthless...

well..till here..till wen will i blog? lord knws..
to all my O level buddies and loved ones,
do well..study hard.. i wish u all e best...

Dani Nero walking out wif a middle finger and sayin
`fuck u and have a nice day`....

its nvr too late

2007-10-07T12:35:00.000+08:00

well..so far.. things has been looking up.
fri.was e last paper for N levels..
juz wen the bloody baldy mama said
`alright,u may go now`....
e Sec 4 F&N students gave a lil shout..

I went like a bloody fool..
`N level da bez.. N level da bez...`
haha...

went home, took 28..
sat wif miera...talked to her
abt hw i wanna apologise to julie
den she said...ok..i`l call her now..
i was shock as i didnt knw ha to break it out to her..
wif stutters at e start..i said it..

i guess..my ego had juz to be put down and
i nvr regret it..

went home..
phil came over to slack. he slept while i break-fast.
den went over to his place..chill.. spa-ed..
went online and chatted wif mihah n julie after
months...

den yesterday(saturday)
went to look for job..
applied for
1) Golden Village
2) Toys R`Us...
3) Hans river..
4) Sakura ( East point outlet)
5) Cafe Cartel ( Tamp Mall)
6) Breeks (East Point)

break fast bla bla bla den
arnd 9+ went to ikea..
saw old frenz n foes
had great time wif
parents, baby(2nd sis) & Dan
dad crack jokes that he had nvr done b4...

went to Giant after that..
wooa...thats wen i went crazy
i juz love grocerie shopping..
haha..
went to simpang bedok ..
ate satay,chicken wings
and e beef kue teow there
is superb!!

went home.. talked to shikin..
maisarah emailed me..
gald she is doing well in perth..

today will be going Defu lane
to get potato chips for raya..
i guess.. havin her outta ma life is
simply awesome,yea i do admit i miss her
juz ALIL bit..
but e pain dat she gave me..
haha
not worth it...

til here

`its nvr too late to apologise`

buah lembek

2007-10-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

ah.. if people cant get any childish..
tagged frm dis person so called
`tiqah` `ala move on blah2..im sure ur hawt gorgeous2 blah2`
den next comment.. `i hav admired u for long and afar`...

FUCK U..

sorry fuck face.. u got the wrg person
to prank.. 1st u say abt hw i wld look like
den u say u admire me for long blah2...

eh fuck.. i aint dumb...
2 prime suspects come to mind...

u dun like me..come find me..

MATS & MINAHS.. bleady no brainers..

and eversince this happen.. i juz gotta

take out my tag..

not much peeps tag anyway.. so no point..

like i said.. u got a prob wif me

come find me...

k... engh of these dumbfucks..

well.. the N`s are coming to a close.. well.. dats good.. but i`l miss

the presense of that someone.. :P

o yea.. fri i`l ask her out tho..

am i being a typical guy? yea i am..

sorry if i said i cant get over her.. boo hoo..

i have learn to not lick back wad i have spit..

now..she attced with her guy.. why cant i..

well..b4 raya. comes, its time for me to

seek for forgvness frm the ones that i have caused

pain or hurt..

1st person. Julyanna Jamil.

eversince that incident on msn... we have not been talkin..

well..yea i guess i am in e wrg.

2nd person..hmm.. e rest of e guys i guess..

hav been thinkin if i shld mail farhana or not and say my s0rries..

but i guess i wld be wasting my time n energy..

engh is engh its time for a change

2007-09-29T11:32:00.000+08:00

u knw.. some people juz think abt themself`s..
i aint rich like u..i aint workin yet juz like u...
i didnt say i was busy..when i talk in that way to u..
u freakinly didnt like it.get ur fuckin facts st8 and
set ur piorities st8.

aite? i hav had it up to my head with ur attitude..
if u werent my brother, i already had freakinly
pick up a fist fight with u..

all dis while.. i gueess i have been patient..
too patient.. the things ppl do that get me on my
nerves..
chinese saying sumpah*( swear in malay)
dont u ever let me hear u say that word..
i wont like it n nvr will.. brother of e slackers gang
or sch`s `Brothers K` chinese frenz,
i`l fuck u back..

and yes.. i hate mats..
maybe i am a mat..
but i`l nvr act like one..
i am not the same Danial u ppl used to knw..

dont u ever ask me to not fast juz to join u guys in eating
dont u ever try to pursude me tro drink booze with u guys..
i nvr critise ur religion..so dont critisize mine..
dont u ever dare think and treat me like e idoit u
ppl used to.. cuz i aint dat stopid anymore...

cuz for once, i wont care abt those who dont appri.
wad i have done for them. i wont show e damn concern
and wont be dat caring. cuz im sick of carin for those
that juz dont appri. it. and i`l disown u if u ever go beyond
e line.. 1 person had already done that. that is my 1st sis.

i wont seek for forgvness again. cuz u step all over
my head. dont think u hav my blessin for ur wedding.
cuz now.. i only have 1 sis. and she is already happily married
with a lovely kid. my sis, Nadia.

to the slackers gang. i wont be bothered to contact u..
cuz it has always been me contacting.
im sick of plannin. u do e plannin for once.
i can survive on my own.. fuck it if im a loner.
wenever im wif u guys n myt ex. msgs or wad. u complain
make fuckinly irritatin noises. but
now im single.and wen u were attched. u cld do dat.
im right beside u and u cld contact ur gf`s and i juz cldnt. muz tell her
im wif u guys so that she knw tat i have a life. but wad abt u?
and where were u wen i needed u? no where. if u were..wad
did u ask me to do? u ask me to go to ur hse..
wtf? u needed me.. i rushed to ur place. i didnt ask u 2 come
over..it defeats e damn purpose. so sleep on it!
and i mourn over my break up wif farhana. u complain.
u easily say get over her..its ez...blah2...
wad abt u huh? dont be self fish aite?

i knw this entry will hurt some peeps..
so yea... its for e best

if u dont like it.. come find me.. u knw where i`l be..

lonely september

2007-09-27T17:05:00.000+08:00

it really has been a shitty month for me..
sometimes i wonder
wen my brothers need me there for help,
be it in a fight or as for e slackers gang,
need some1 to talk to after they have thir probs
and need some1 to talk to, i never fail to rush to their place.
be it i am busy or eating or sleeping

it was e same back den wen i was with farhana.
i never fail to com,e to her, let her thrash out her anger
out to me juz cuz her mum scolded her or she is stressed up.

maybe its my nature of helpin them.
i like helping ppl.
but
somehow.. i dun feel the sense of appriciation
frm them. be it e slackers gang,sch frenz or even last time
wen i was with farhana.

till now, i feel so called neglected and unappriciated.
e slackerz gang rarely wants to hear me out for my probs.,.
if dey do, all the do is juz `aiya.. u alwys like dat.. too emo..blah2`

but wad abt u? do u hear urself wen u were e one needin
some1 to talk to? did i ever said `aiya...`?
NEVEr.. i advise them.but do they lisen? no dey dont
then, e next thing i knw, my advise is bein taken but no credit
goes to me..

aint complainin but im sick n tired of them
seeing me as a joker and a idoit of e grp.
yea...i do like to fool arnd.but i juz want to be taken
seriously for once by some1..

maybe it was due 2 e effects of e huge break up i had.
but well..

god knws..

till here..

~im missin u till dis day, passin by ur sch,ur hm,the places we
chilled,brings me back good memories. good luck wif ur new man.
i still love u~

its too late to apologise

2007-09-25T21:02:00.001+08:00

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah yeah

I loved you with the fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late whoa.....

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet off...

damn dis is a nice song.. juz felt like singin it to her.. den i saw her shooutout.. i cant say much. she is already attched to a new guy and had moved on..all i cld do is well.. i dunno.. juz wish her e best but deep2 down im torned up?

took 21 home juz now, was lisenin to 98.7 den reaced her hse bus stop, the song
`Wait For U` by elliot yamin was played.

bummer, a place full of mixed memories and that song juz had to play..wtf..

N levels is juz next week. juz gotta run my finak lap of my journey to accomplish my goals and do well..

aint working wif philips mum, -_-'

job hunting st8 after N`s.. maybe starbucks,coffee bean,sportslink is my likely destination, but den again,

i wanna work at HMV, or even Toys`R`us... hahah

have been under e weather recently.. body aches, high fever...

maybe dune to e sudden stop of me smoking?

god knws... tat is such a bad excuse.,

well i have officially stopped drinking.. maybe its juz for my own good... made it official on 16 ofSept. choosed dat particular date `16` for a reason. dats wen i gotta knw her..

many ask wads e purpose of mi blog? well maybe is juz to advise peeps on love and dish out my love life dat is juz.. well bad. not cuz she make it..but i did..

so guyys... NEVER
and i mean NEVER
THREATEN OR pick up petty fights,, that will be ur biggest mistake..

never i regret knowing her, nvr did i regret lovinng her, but io do regret hurting her... dats y i chose dis song.. but tooo bad for me dat she`s attched.. to be frank, my eyes teared and my heart went soft wen i saw her recent shout-out..

but if she`s happy.. wad can i dO? :(

i guess it was e best for HER to 4get me n move on.. i guess she does regret knowin me,lovin me etc...

but for me. e memories are juz far2 to strong..

till here..

-like i made e promise to my grave, i`l nvr move on.the love for u is juz far far too strong..tats a promise and a swear i have made.. and said it again in dis very fasting month,,the month of ramadhan war doa`s, insyallah come true..thats is my doa.. and will stick by it.. -

-I will always love u my love,my heart,my s0ul, my everything.. S.F.B.M.S-

wad does S.F.B.M.S means? go figure..hint..(my love)

est.
- 16.03.06-
-050406-
to
190707....

-~u`l always be in my heart, wish u e best wif ur new man :( ~

biggest regrets..

2007-09-22T20:06:00.001+08:00

what a long ass weekend its gonna be.. well
let me juz cap off what has been happening in this week.
mondae to wed`s.. normie sch.. borin shit..
thurs, had a surprise birthday celeb 4 patrick..
bought him a Karmasutra book for his 21st bdae.. haha

aint dat cheecky?? yty was supposed to go Sentosa
for his 2nd surprise party..didnt go as i wasnt allowed to
stay over..
poo ball!! den went to geylang instead wif my parents..

2day..woke up, did spring cleaning..
room is sparkly clean now!!

hmm.. i guess farhana wont knw dat dis blog exist..
i wont deny e fact dat i rejected Atiqah cuz I still had
and stil hav feeling for Farhana.. but.. not being able to see her on frenster,
and hearin frm frenz that she had labeled herself as `Married` in friendster.
well..she must be really in love with her new guy..

if she`s happy I guess.. i gotta be happy for her rite? -_-"
its like everywhere i go, the things ppl do. make me
remember her or have sweet flash backs..
like yty in bus 67,e bus stop at e traffic light at her sch bus stop
so frm my view of my seat was e sch`s front gate, suddenly
the cuppycake song was played by some1 infront of me,
den went i looked out, i saw this pri sch girl using a strawberry backpack
den infront of bus 67 was 228.. -_-' den in sch, some mly girls were playin
`farhana` by jinbara on thier hp.

haiz... like the song added to my imeem states a long of meanin

the way u look at me- i nvr fail to melt n love her more wen she looks at me
i miss u like crazy- i am missin her like crazy nw..
diairi hatimu- its juz haiz...
mahligai dari airmata ku- e best jiwang song.. damn
wait for u- e lyrics juz says it all
lips of an angel- juz like hers
gotta go my own way- its like im imaginin dat she is singin dis 2 me.. :(
photogrph- her photos is all dat i have.. and also teddy
untuk selamanya.. - its heartbreakin lisenin 2 dis song
if i die tonight- wad if i die 2nite? will she still 4gv me?

and sadly i cldnt put `you were my everythin` inside e playlist..

have been emoin alot dis past few days,

dis year raya will be e saddest for me cuz of her..

well..if its for e best.. wad can i do?

alot have been learn frm dis incident... all i cld hav juz wish for was time to turn back and for me
not to treat her badly and threaten her.. dat was my biggest mistakes.. i doubt she`l eva acceot me back in her life..

freakinly.. miss her..but i shldnt as she is attch?? is she? haiz.. dunno la.. :=(= its gonna be e worst raya eva

so.. haiz..
guys out there...
treasure ur girlfrenz b4 its too late

:(

`i`l always miss e blur look u have on ur face

juz need my brothezr rite now

2007-09-18T17:42:00.001+08:00

d lyrics are below

kinda well.. aint myself

needing my bro`s company... sadly they arent free..

till here..

juz remem this...

`if i die tonight... juz think that i`l be alright and u`l be too`

dedicated for her

2007-09-18T17:22:00.001+08:00

Talking:]
This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

well this song juz bring tears to my eyes...

it really juz literally reflects back on me & farhana..
i cant add this to my imeem playlist..
if those reader out there wanna lisen 2 my playlist juz type out my name that is `danial khalis` and poof!!
u can see a pix of me too!!

well dad got new car already.

went to simpang bedok for buka yesterday...
kinda miss her and brought me to lil drplets of tears wen i passed by her sch yty otw 2 sch and passed by her hse via 21 juz now..

well... msn is cocked up.. till here..

to her, i juz wanna say...
`......................` (i`l say it wen e time is right)
and juz wanna wish
NUR KHALISHAH a very Happy 16th birthday

super shag

2007-09-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

sorry for the short absense..

yesterday, woke up arnd 9.05 to bath and

pack up for johor.. as me,mum, 2nd sis(Nadia)

Dan(bro in law) and Diandra we off to johor by

arnd 10am.

Dan& sis rented a car... Hyundai Avante,

big,spacious.. reached customs by arnd 11+

den wanted to go to Angsana for the girls

to shop for their Hari Raya cloths. haha

not onli dem. Me and Dan also shopped.

I could have gone mad while shopping

bought a Vans white shoe for 50rm as

it was on sale.. that`s abt 25bucks Singapore money,

1/4 the price sia.. so i grab it without any hesitation la sia..

also bought 2 bermudas, Billabong and Volcom

for 120rm. 60bucks sing $....

sad thing is..didnt manage to buy any top for me

c.b.. bought Dunkin Doughnuts.. not much left..

den went to Kenny Rogers for buka(break fast)

had Tangy Spageti Chicken and 1/4 of a

roasted black pepper chicken..

supper yummy!!

haha..e best thing is.. bought $40 bucks of

dvds.. as 1cost only abt 4rm. 2sing $...

haha

went thru sin customs by 10.30pm..

all of us were juz super tired...

didnt eat much for 2days sahur(eatin at dawn)

woke up arnd 11.45

bathed Diandra,now updating

blog, adding up new songs on my imeem playlist too!!!!!

WOOTS

2days plan? juz slack at hm.. very2 tired..

cant and dont wanna do much..

2morow dad will get e new car..

Toyota Vios..

yea..

kinda in e low mood these days... yesterday

at J.B.. i swear i thought i saw her..

look exactly the same. dressed the same way..

but it wasnt..

well til here...

lips on an angel..

2007-09-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

juz finish terawih wif mom n dad at home
well.. also juz updated my
IMEEM playlist..
added some songs that are dedicated to her
and overall the songs are juz really meaningful

juz gonna be a short entry..
juz wanna tell ya peeps that i updated my
Imeem Playlist with

1) Photograph - Nickleback

2) a unspoilt Lips on an angel- hinder

and took out some songs that

arent meant to be there as

i juz wan e playlist to be

in the memorance

of her

and i`l be addin some more up 2morow

till here...

im missing u each min and each day

of my life..

05/04/2006 - 22/07/2007 R.I.P

2007-09-13T15:38:00.000+08:00

it realy has been awhile since i have talked
to her...recently.. i really have been dreamin
abt meeting her on e streets... and we talk
and all

i had yet wash e purple jacket that
she use when ever it was raining,
it still hangs right infront of my door,
her teddy bear given durin on our anny,

sighs...but i knw and realise that there is
really no point griefing as she wont turn back
and deep down i knw that we arent meant to be
2gada..this might juz be my saddest raya....
its already the 1st day of puasa..

really.. i juz wanna repent... be a man of my word
for once.. for once.. juz be e real me..
not make e same stopid ass mistakes i made in the pass
recently.. e slackers gang had a meaninful talked with each
other.. advising each other abt thier past relationships..
i guess.. i really have to move on..

she already had.. why cant i and why haven`t i?
i juz really dont knw.. i really juz hope dat she knws
dat dis blog exists..
i want her to lisen to the songs on my imeem playlist..
i want her to `If I die tonight`

it really has been a bad year for me..
but all i can do is really repent and
juz be happy for her..

like e famous sayin goes.

`if u love some one that much,

let the person fly free when needed

even if the person you love is in

another one`s hand..`

and i knw has found some1..
I juz really wish u e very best..

-if we do meet on e streets one day, juz take it that we`r strangers-

If i die tonight

2007-09-12T17:38:00.000+08:00

if i die tonight..
u`l knw i`l be alright
juz smile for me..
reminicence the fond memories...

sch was juz alright..

recently..i took bus 21 home..

using sweater and all being sick..

suddenly.. i thought and i really think i saw her crossing over..

i juz smiled..

seriously..i juz smiled and juz be happy for her

for moving on and forgetting me..

maybe my eyes was playing tricks on me,

but only god knws if it was her...

today...have been singin

`If I die tonight` by Too Phat feat Liyana

its juz a nice song.. i wish she could lisen to dis..

have been lisening to dis song alot..

and it brings me back memories..

i mean...

wad if i do die tonight?

wad wld happen to e slackers gang?

my family?

i juz wanna seek for forgvness

to those tat i hv hurt,lied and

caused probs wif..but

i juz dunno hw..

god knws..

have been really workin ma ass off..

N`s are juz arnd the corner..

Fasting Month is juz tomorrow..

somehow.. i juz wanna avoid goin 2 e bazzar at geylang.

fearin i bump into her or her family..

juz imagining like we suddenly realise

we are walking juz side by side

god dang i think i`l juz smile or

juz look down..god knws..

having her entire family have a bda image

on me is juz bad engh..

tonight will be prayers...

tot of goin e one at bdk reservoir..

as its shorter and khairul also goin..

but come to think off it.. (near her hse)

i juz pass and prey at gufran or home

well..till here

MonDay Blues...

2007-09-10T17:52:00.000+08:00

feeling the monday blues..

it was time 4 sch
didnt bring much to sch..

didnt noe wad 2 bring ethier..

sch was juz...

sighs..

its gonna be

intensive
double period(2 hour),maths,

sci,phy,hummanz

and get this.. 3hours of f&n in a day..
haha

durin self study..
me,lishah,hasanah and
kadim so called cam-whored..

both deserve to get awards to act cute... :P

it looks like im biting her head off..haha

lishah was bein irritating and singin

kadim a birthday song w.o knwin i was

recordin it.. haha

blah blah blah..

and like i said..

year 2007 is year full of break ups

not only i hav 2 exprience my frenz

breakin up on sat,sun..

2day also haf.. -_-'

but i dunno la eh...

for me? ppl ask alot of quest..

y still single..

blah blah blah

truth is.. well now i am

begining to expriciate wads

love and all..

some say

`ur good in advising ur us abt love and all

but.. wad abt ur love story?`

well im e sort that likes to advice others but

i didnt took care of my love life

properly..

well advise to guys out there..

`NEVER and I MEAN

NEVER

THREATEN UR LOVE ONE `

learnin frm mistakes..

regretting my past..

but i cant do anything abt it..

its all in e past...

like i say..yea i still love her

but if she`s happy to be with some1..

i`l be happy too...

till here aite?

toodles!

updated playlist on imeem too!!

Rated D

its juz sucks

2007-09-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

e songs added on Rated D imeem playlist is
lips of an angel..
diari hatimu..

and e hot fav!

never let ya go by janice..

i guess the year 2007 is juz reallie fucked up..

a year full of breakups and

heartbreaking stories of love..

the most recent is someone

that is close to me..

my `brother`

i shall not say or

talk futhur abt this issue..

i guess i seen the light

ever since an incident that happen in my life

it really change my whole prospective and

views on love and

the true meaning of

LOVE

it thought me that nothing last forever,

and some ppl juz dont knw

wad do they want in life until

their life takes a huge downfall

yesterday, was stay home day until arnd 9+ wen

philip called and said there was a prob..

so..i rushed to their hse 2 e rescue..haha

den slack at e playgrnd & smoke my

last 2 ciggs..

went to Bark Cafe 4 england`s game,

chill and juz relax..

thought of ordering booze..

but come 2 think of it, i juz

ordered thier house ice tea speciality..

as i really do wanna repent

and hot chicken wings juz top it off

totally..

went home abt say..1+..

slept at 4...did some reflecting and

juz havin plain old flash backs..

2day woke up with diandra`s

noise.. went to lib wif dad & dian

whiled they did their search 4

books, i did my history..

until i saw well.. lets juz not say

den went to food culture 2 eat..

had prawn noodles and soursop ice jelly

until philip called..

went to his hse..talked..

and his mom advising us on certain

issues of life..

came over 4 dinner and watch

High School Musical 2

for e 2nd time..

haha.. e songs are juz kick ass..

some reflect back on my life..

well.. its 2212 now..

time 4 bed..

sch starts again 2morrow..

UNFORTUNATELY..

well..wad 2 do..

Dan oUTsZ!!!

updated my imeem playlist too!!!

better nicer song... well..

its all related to her la eh...

i guess im happy if she is happy

since seeing her happie

god knws attched or nt to him..

well.. yea

fake smile..well nah..

i`l be happie 4 her

and yea..

i admit..

i miss her

well.. aint it abit too late??

sighs

danial u suck..

dani out!

it all happens for a reason

2007-09-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

well wen life cant get any shitter

yesterday was supposedly to go job

huntin wif philp arnd e east side...

but UNSURPRISINGLY

philip woke up late HAHAHA

and was reluctant to go

and the best thing is..

I`ve GOT A JOB!!

after my N`s I`l be working with philip

for his mum..

at last something to do!!

and mom and i are discussing on

me joining a chinese lesson class..

and i dun mind at all.. at simei only..

stayed at philips hse frm 12 to arnd 5-ish..

went home.. talk 2 farah

as she needs some1 to talk 2

as she is havin bgr probs den

changed and headed for the pool

to meet parents and diandra..

swum abt say 10laps of e 1.8m pool...

went to food culture to eat but i was

to shack 2 juz eat..

Pat was suppose to call and

plan a slacking shit...

but unsuprsingly.. it nvr did happen..

talk 2 J.. glad she is back wif her

civil defence boify..

as for today 8/9/07..

another borin dae.. woke up due 2 a grumbling stomach

fought wif dad AGAIN..

blah blah blah...

well.. something has reallie bugged ma mind..

havin juz to know that some1 whom was close

2 my heart juz got attched..

well yea it do sadden me but somehow..

its 4 e best.. and my sinsere

wishes on havin a lasting relationship wif him..

GOD knows isit true or not.. but

well.. wads past is past..

u & ur family hates me..

If we do accidentaly see each other

be it durin e geylang bazzar or on e streets..

i wont bear any grudges if we juz walked pass

as if we r complete strangers.. i do deserve that. but

yea.. thats history..

i have move on.. well sorta

and for now..

i think i have disgrace the term of

`STRAIGHTEDGE`

havin that to be my so called nick

i somehow disgraced it by still

drinking and smoking..

but frm now.. i think its time for me to live up

to the name.. have stop smoking for abt a week or so nw

i guess its juz for the best and havin the fasting month

juz arnd the corner..

and sighs..

its Saturday and i cant freakin believe i hav no plans!!

argh!!!

thats all for now i guess..

till here.. toodle di doo

Songs

2007-09-06T18:55:00.001+08:00

llalaa

Expo

2007-09-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

6th of sept..

suposedly to go job huntin wif

philip..

but NOT suprisingly he change his mind and the whole

damn plan for well.. F it..

den woke up early due to e effin heat of no electricity..

took a bath..met up wif J and she accompanied me to

a job interview as it was juz nearby

her house... walkin distance to East Point..

den she had to go to sch 4 god knws wad..

damn man.. simei to btss freakin trblesome..

den went home.. still no electricity..mum decided to go expo

as there was a 4 in 1

thingy there... -_-'

full of typical malay

makciks

mum bought hella of alot

of stuff frm potato chips

to kuih to god know wad...

and the girls there at the

food stalls were hawt..

saw a few familiar faces

juz siad hie`s and bye`s

den went home via cab... which was arnd 1630.. e current

was only back on @ 1730...

CURSE those damn constructions!!

now bloggin.. J called as she wans to go to

EXPO..

-_-'

nvm2..

i might wanna try the ear waxin thingy... cheap..

10buckeroos...

till here hor..

to be continued...

-as u went away frm my life and went to an arm of another..

all i cld do is juz wish u the best..-

straight off fresh frm the cutting edge

2007-09-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

well..its a new blog.. its still under contsruction,

bloggin frm philip`s hse..

2day well...

is a enjoyable yet a day full of memories for me..

5th...

being it

a former date of anny with a certain somebody..

yea it does bring me back spcial memories...

but wad can i do rite? to that some1...

gudluck wif ur future endevours and examinations...

today was englsih n levels..

it was alright..thats all i cld say..

ppr 1 for compo i did e topic of

`who do u admire most and explain why`...

it was relatively clear abt whom i was gona write abt..

my beloved mother

p2 was ok lar...

stopid topics...

water & some iraqi storie....

den went home.. took a bath, eat and den went to J`s hse to watch dvd, and slept.

phil called fuckin me up..J was laughin her ass off and was teasin me..
gay buddies..lala..

den took a bath den took a cab there..

he helped wif some adjustments to the damn blog...

well.. its still under construction.

now..time is 2252..

phil is talkin to his girly... patboi whom juz came bck frm came and will be bookin

in 2moro is usin e upstairs comp..

will be slackin at e playgrnd near his place arnd 1130-1145...

Phil & me will ethier job hunting or workin 4 his mum 2moro..

still editing the blog.. will be puttng up songs and some other stuff too..

well do link me up okay?

till here..

D Rated

2007-09-04T19:33:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo the 1st edition of the D Rated Superstar`s CuttingEdge..... woots!!