it really has been awhile ever since i chilled out
relaxed ma mind and chill wif an `old fren`
that i used to knw..

its kinda sad 2 see and hear on what has happen between us..
maybe it was for e best... maybe it wasnt..
but yea.. i admit.. i miss dat `old fren` that i use 2
hve..

work has been hell..
one by one my close frenz resigned..
sad as i am one of e few left...


will be watching e Game Plan
wif shazwani,her boi, me and liyana..
double date? haha
nah...

recently while i was serving...
i saw X`s close b.f
he saw me..
he was wif his grp of frenz dat somehw look
eva so familiar..

if my suspicions was rite..she was there too..
right there and then... i started 2
tremble... lord knws why..
my eye started 2 bcome puffy and
i was juz abt 2 breakdown..
yea..
go ahead..
make fun of me..


but yea..seeing e girl i truly love and miss so much
eventho she is juz an X of mine.. i still do
love her lots and miss her 2 bits..
breaks my heart,
went to e locker room.. and
juz...well.. cried inside..


went out front put a brave front and serve e other patrons..
i guess dis is e point of mi life where i juz have to move on..
she already did..

if i had a time machine...there are 3 points of my life
where i wanted to go back 2...

firstly is when i retained my secondary 3... i wished i had not
slack.. if not..i`l be waitin 4 mi O`s..

2ndly..is when i was wif her.. juz wld love 2 not do e wrong
doings i had done..

lastly is when i lost my best fren..

well..
wad can i do..

yea..admit.. im an egoist... but then..
well...i m juz lost for words... till here...


to her... : i juz wish u all e best wif ur guy.. yea.. altho it breaks me down and breaks my heart to say this, but may u n ur guy hav a long and successful relationship..

to e old fren. : there are many things and shit we both wen thru ethier 2gather or personally..
yea i do miss ur company,in a fren kinda way..but since dis had 2 happen.. i cld nt do anythin...
like u said.. im a burden.. so yea..

2 e readers... well will be bloggin agn..soon..

so yea..

till here..