it really has been a shitty month for me..
sometimes i wonder
wen my brothers need me there for help,
be it in a fight or as for e slackers gang,
need some1 to talk to after they have thir probs
and need some1 to talk to, i never fail to rush to their place.
be it i am busy or eating or sleeping


it was e same back den wen i was with farhana.
i never fail to com,e to her, let her thrash out her anger
out to me juz cuz her mum scolded her or she is stressed up.


maybe its my nature of helpin them.
i like helping ppl.
but
somehow.. i dun feel the sense of appriciation
frm them. be it e slackers gang,sch frenz or even last time
wen i was with farhana.


till now, i feel so called neglected and unappriciated.
e slackerz gang rarely wants to hear me out for my probs.,.
if dey do, all the do is juz `aiya.. u alwys like dat.. too emo..blah2`

but wad abt u? do u hear urself wen u were e one needin
some1 to talk to? did i ever said `aiya...`?
NEVEr.. i advise them.but do they lisen? no dey dont
then, e next thing i knw, my advise is bein taken but no credit
goes to me..

aint complainin but im sick n tired of them
seeing me as a joker and a idoit of e grp.
yea...i do like to fool arnd.but i juz want to be taken
seriously for once by some1..

maybe it was due 2 e effects of e huge break up i had.
but well..

god knws..

till here..


~im missin u till dis day, passin by ur sch,ur hm,the places we
chilled,brings me back good memories. good luck wif ur new man.
i still love u~